Aussi je me promettais, dans la salle à manger, pendant qu’on commencerait à dîner et que je sentirais approcher l’heure, de faire d’avance de ce baiser qui serait si court et furtif, tout ce que j’en pouvais faire seul, de choisir avec mon regard la place de la joue que j’embrasserais, de préparer ma pensée pour pouvoir grâce à ce commencement mental de baiser consacrer toute la minute que m’accorderait maman à sentir sa joue contre mes lèvres, comme un peintre qui ne peut obtenir que de courtes séances de pose, prépare sa palette, et a fait d’avance de souvenir, d’après ses notes, tout ce pour quoi il pouvait à la rigueur se passer de la présence du modèle. →
And so I promised myself that in the dining-room, as they began to eat and drink and as I felt the hour approach, I would put beforehand into this kiss, which was bound to be so brief and stealthy in execution, everything that my own efforts could put into it: would look out very carefully first the exact spot on her cheek where I would imprint it, and would so prepare my thoughts that I might be able, thanks to these mental preliminaries, to consecrate the whole of the minute Mamma would allow me to the sensation of her cheek against my lips, as a painter who can have his subject for short sittings only prepares his palette, and from what he remembers and from rough notes does in advance everything which he possibly can do in the sitter's absence.